in the beginning

I've been wanting to start a blog for a little while now.. I want/need some sort of outlet. I think my friends may be growing tired of my endless rants about my psycho in-laws and my frequent weeping about my continual non-pregnant state.

The introduction:
I'm happily married (2 years and almost 4 months) My husband and I are both 23. We have one daughter (from my previous relationship. engaged. not married.) She will be 4 in June. We also have a cat and a dog.
My in-laws are psycho (whose aren't?) and live about 6 hours away from us. Not the '3 states of personal space' I'd prefer, but it'll have to do. My parents live about 3 hours from us, but they're not psycho, so this is a good thing.

We've been trying to have another child almost as long as we've been married. After trying for about a year and a half I got a 'Pregnant' on one of those nifty, digital, pee-sticks. June 16th. We excitedly called everyone we've known since preschool to tell them all the great news. I was hesitant to do this, as I had a feeling it wouldn't last. Somehow I knew, but I thought if I just went on like everything would be okay, then it would be. Of course, this was not so. About a week later I started to bleed. We went to the ER and waited for an eternity. They ran numerous tests and ordered an internal ultrasound. We got to see our little raisin-looking baby. I'm glad we got to see him.
It's been just over 9 months since our loss. We have yet to conceive again and are beginning infertility testing.

I haven't really found anyone to talk to yet. I have quietly mentioned our struggle to get pregnant to a few people, testing the waters to see if they might lend a bit of support. So far I've gotten a lot of "At least you have one" and "You're still young". Loss and fertility issues apparently aren't supposed to be as difficult when you're under 30 and have a child already. So now I sit, cross-legged in my papasan chair, listening to 'Dora the Explorer' on TV, and 'talking' to no one in particular. I hope this outlet provides something positive for me through its existance, however brief it may be.